Thursday, March 08, 2012

I am tired!

This blog may seem like a pity party but just bear with me because I know that in the End Christ is sufficient for me. Lately, I have just realized how I am a complainer. I am tired of sin and so I complain about that. I am tired of trials and so I complain about that. I am tired of having a overly dramatized life and so I complain about that. Then after sharing a life event that happened to me someone said to me, wow your life is just full of drama so I once again I am tired of that. So as I lay in bed last night I kept thinking about ways were I didn't have to tell people whats going on in my life to spare them the over dramatized life I lead. Then I kept remembering 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then I am content with weaknesses insults, hardships, persecutions and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong." I realized that the only way we grow and become more dependent on Christ is when we walk through weakness and calamities and hardships and so on. So what if I am tired i need to just keep keeping on. But then the question aroused in my mind was how can I do this without sharing every little scary detail of my life, like a car accident, uncomfortable pregnancy pressure and so on? How can I keep a joyful attitude when talking with people? How can i fashion my life by pure rejoicing? I haven't figured this all out and I will probably spend a life time trying to not focus on myself and my hardships, but for now I am just going to rest in my weaknesses, knowing this is just what God has for me in time of my life. So when people ask me whats knew I may just not much but all is well.